Saturday, January 31, 2009

They say
"It's better to have loved and lost
then to never have loved at all"

I'm not sure if that's true.
Wish I'd never met that person.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Poem, I have a rendezvous with death.

One more poem, it's pretty sweet. The man who wrote it, Alan Seeger, did it while on WWI duty. Let me give you the poem. *ehm*

I have a rendezvous with Death
At some disputed barricade,
When spring comes back with rustling shade
And apple-blossoms fill the air
I have a rendezvous with Death
When Spring brings back blue days and fair.

It may be he shall take my hand
And lead me into his dark land
And close my eyes and quench my breath
It may be I shall pass him still.
I have a rendezvous with Death
On some scarred slope on battered hill,
When Spring comes round again this year
And the first meadow-flowers appear.

God knows 'twere better to be deep
Pillowed in silk and scented down,
Where Love throbs out in blissful sleep,
Pulse nigh to pulse, and breath to breath,
Where hushed awakenings are dear...
But I've a rendezvous with Death
At midnight in some flaming town,
When spring trips north again this year,
And I to my pledged word am true,
I shall not fail that rendezvous.

Beautiful isn't it. He actually died before his poems became famous. As is the case for some great people.

The user PoetryAnimations in YouTube has some great animated poems (as the name suggests). Here is the animation for Alan's Poem.

Bla Bla Bla!

I always have long conversations with my own brain. Doesn't matter if I am sitting on a buss, having a shower, eating or walking. I am always talking to myself in my own head, having arguments left and right about shit as if someone else was there to talk to, often times I just crack jokes though, as if I was at a talk show or something with people watching me, or having coffe with bunch of new people. I had this complete random convo in my head as I was having a shower. It went something like this...

- We are really lucky to even have arms and legs man, there are people who don't even have limbs. So in a sense, whatever we are up to, even if we don't work we are doing pritty fucking good compared to others.

- Yea you're right, but you don't really have to limit yourself like that. Just because you are better off then most people in the world doesn't mean you don't need to get better, and get an even better life! If you are born in Sweden, live in a big nice house and don't have any major worries you are good off but it's not wrong with getting more houses, more cars and more cash if you can! And if you can YOU FUCKING SHOULD.
  It's like saying "Aww some people don't even have dicks so you should't masturbate" FUCK THAT. Count your blessings AND have a wank, perfect :)

And then I got a little scenario in my head. It was like I was on a talk show, like Conan O'Brian and we were having a chatt.

Conan: Haha ok, but why did you pick THAT as an example? :)
Me: Well you are like your friends are [That was actually a swedish saying "Man blir som man umgås" and that was a rough translation]... *looks at camera* YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, GUSTAVO SOTO, ROMAN HASSAS, AHMED BARZANGI, KALIM KHAN!

*crowd laughs*

And that is like some of the talks in my heads, HIHIHI BYE.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

-_- zzZzzZ

builders in the fucking house again. they started drilling THROUGH my wall, what a way to wake up huh. Fuck me. don't think i have slept well for 23 years now. and they are so fucking chitt chatty too. fuck my life. i love how my dad takes them in and gives them this grand tour as well. and why the hell is the whole fucking house shaking when they drill. EVERY TIME builders come here and start drilling i ALWAYS hear em go "...hmm concrete" after 10mins of drilling and i can feel the whole house shaking and my bed is jumping and moving left 1mm at a time. FUCK ME. which  means they have to drill 30 more minutes. 

Oh it was my 23rd Bday on January the 19th did I tell ya? More about it soon! stay tuned

Sunday, January 11, 2009

A song for the oldies

Soundgarden - Black Hole Sun
probably one of the best songs ever in my opinion, it's ageless, enjoy.


Dreams are weird and wonderful aren't they? Don't they say that you dream about what is to come in the future or what you think about? Anyway... I had a dream once, not too long ago, where I was in a film, and we were filming. I'm not going to go into details about what happened because since it was a dream it didn't make any fucking sense at all. But I loved that dream and the "scenes" I was in and what had happened, with the music in the background and all so as soon as I woke up I immediately wrote it all down and I keep it in my little "idea book" =o)) I got a few ideas there now of thing's I'd like to do.

Anyway, my point is what my favorite type of dream is. My favorite type of dream is where I try to escape from danger where I can die! The dream (the small bit's I can remember of course) started of with a few girls giving my huge complement on a book that I had written, a book called The Heart of Dark or Darkness or something. I Wiki'd that and found this and that means that I have to read that polish guys novellas now Since you often don't realize you are actually dreaming I was thinking "huh??" Thought they had mistaken me for someone else but then I realized "damn, wish I really had written a book, how fucking cool..."

Anywho, back to escaping death. I was in this high rise building maybe 20 stories high. And I saw a plum of rubble and smoke coming out of a house like 300 yards away like a rocket had hit it or something and all of a sudden the building I was in was shaking violently, they were trying to tear it down and of course I had to escape that, then escape some builder guy who wanted to kill me etc. The point is, I love dreams where you have to escape death, it's like a video game really :)

What's your favorite dream? Think about it.

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Thursday, January 8, 2009

I <3 Astrophysics

I fucking love astrophysics (space and stuff). I suppose as you grow older you want to learn more. It's always interesting to hear how the universe wants to kill you :)


Thursday, January 1, 2009

FFFFFUUUU 2008, Hi 2009! New Year Promises

Hello 2009, I'm Chris Hansen from Dateline NBC, please have a seat.

2008 was bullshit, mostly because of certain someone, but that person is out of my life since a few months back (thank god for that) so 2008 left a bad taste in my mouth, didn't really feel like doing anything but since '08 is over I'm going to make sure '09 will be a lot better and productive.

If anything '08 helped immensely mentally to confirm what I would love to do as a profession in life, acting/producing/annoying and do funny stuff, creative things, 9-5 aint my thaaayyyng nygz.

- Be mindful and appreciative.
- Get a Job
- Do something towards something within acting and/or producing
- Brush teeth everyday
- Be awesome
- Treat my family and friends
- Eat a lot of good food
- Continue with blog since it lets me to start being somehow creative
- See world

I'll add this as time goes on.

It's my sister's Bday today! I gave her a pack of Paradis that my dad got from work hihi the perfect crime, although we got like 5-6 packets of them for some reason :-/ popular dude at work I suppose.

Here is frogger

Frogger made by Neave Games