Samuel Taylor Coleridge

"What if you slept? And what if, in your sleep, you dreamed? And what

if, in your dream, you went to heaven and there plucked a strange

and beautiful flower? And what if, when you awoke, you had the

flower in your hand? Ah, what then?"

... ah, what then?

The cold is gone! And here is some philosophy. It's boring talking about the philosophy of acting, I know it, I get it, I understand and realize the truth and the great idea behind acting then all of my teachers I feel like, and that's saying something.

Like I said, I am not going to post the petty meaningless posts about how my last shit break was like every odd person does, this blog is for the future, it's how I navigated through and became the actor I am today (in the future).

So here is some amazing documentaries about three philosophers, Friedrich Nietzsche, Martin Heidegger, Jean-Paul Sartre.

Forget about acting and you'll be a better actor because of it.

John Cazale Addendum

I should do a longer post about John Cazale I think. I felt like the documentary would speak more highly then I ever could so I kept it short. If Brando showed me how to naturally act in primary parts John opened up the fact that playing secondary roles, he just owns that role and does it as if it's better then primary roles.

I've always known that playing secondary roles over primary if the part is good is a 'common sense' thing, of course you would do it, but he just blew up the whole thing even further.

Quality over quantity.

That documentary really touched me, he seemed like a lovely soul.

I've got such a bad cold, I think I might die tonight.

John Cazale - I Knew It Was You

An poignant and touching short documentary (30something minutes) about the fine actor John Cazale.

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/MMpEOEMXGaY/

Koyaanisqatsi

Take out an hour and a half out of your life, lean back, and enjoy.

Ben

Here is a documentary about Ben, a struggling heroin addict. This is GOLD for the actor, a perfect testament of human behavior of a person who is in this case a heroin addict. Not only is it very touching and I was rooting for Ben and the documentary made me sad an actor has to at the same time just bask in this perfect example of how a human is.

If you as an actor ain't watching things like this to learn from, instead of watching fucking Twilight or whatever you are not an actor, you are just a hack.

Very moving and great docu, RIP buddy.

Out Of Here

Yea, it's all clear in my head now. I got to move to London or whatever, get out of here. Time to get the ball rolling. If I stay here much longer I am going to either kill myself or everyone around me. I am about to blow, and once I leave, I am never going to come back if I have even the SLIGHTEST possibility of staying. If I head the fucking vacuum cleaner again, I'm going to draw a knife across my wrists (I can hear it downstairs as we speak).

I find some solace fucking off to cinemataket who treat me with amazing films, saw A Clockwork Orange the other day (in a cinema, imagine that, and 2001: A Space Odyssey is coming up) , a story in itself that anecdote. And also going to library and reading reading and reading. After about two hours my brain is a bit knackered, take a pause, go back. Writing this I thought of more blog posts to do, i'll do it a bit later, spread 'em out a little bit. 

So there, people can look back on spring 2010 and go "Yep, he was frustrated beyond belief"