The Enlightenment of Sokei-an Sasaki

"One day I wiped out all the notions from my mind. I gave up all
desire. I discarded all the words with which I thought and stayed in
quietude. I felt a little queer—as if I were being carried into
something, or as if I were touching some power unknown to me . . . and
Zzzt! I entered. I lost the boundary of my physical body. I had my
skin, of course, but I felt I was standing in the center of the
cosmos. I spoke, but my words had lost their meaning. I saw people
coming towards me, but all were the same man. All were myself! I had
never known this world. I had believed that I was created, but now I
must change my opinion: I was never created; I was the cosmos; no
individual Mr. Sasaki existed."

Can't wait to act. I want to get to acting and show everyone that I
can do it better then anyone else.

A Streetcar Named Desire + Fugitive Kind ON THE MOVIES.

Best movie experience I've had in my life so far. Now, I've seen both
films a few times before already, of course, so I wasn't sure if I
should go see it again, I thought I should let it rest for a few years
before watching it again but then I thought "these films on the
cinema... when will I get that chance again?"... so I went! And damn
and I glad I did. These two films, especially Streetcar is so much
better on the big screen it's freaky. It was as if I saw them for the
first time.

Usually when I watch a film unless it's SUPER good I get bored after
an hours, my mind is simply all over the place sometimes, but I flew
threw both these films and it was pure joy. Watching Brando (I call
him "my teacher" in my head, because he really is the one who taught
me acting) on the big screen is just fascinating and I hope to do just
a good of a job like he one day!

One thing that was fascinating was to hear peoples reaction watching
the film. People were laughing quite a lot at Brando. Not AT him but
with him like he was a jokester, people were obviously on "his side"
from the beginning which was interesting. Yes it is different watching
films in a situation like that.

I sat as I mostly do in the middle of the 4th row. I slide forward a
bit to the edge of my seat with my neck resting on the back-rest and
kick my feet up and life is good. It really is one of my favorite
things to do.

I saw Streetcar yesterday and just got back home from watching The
Fugitive Kind and yea Marlon is great of course but this time I really
took a huge shine towards Anna Magnani. She really put on a fantastic
performance in this film and I've heard people don't like her acting,
they must be out of their minds. "Smaken som baken", as they say in
Sweden. And I almost cried at the end of the film when she is standing
in her thing that she build up that the old man burns down right after
she tells Xavier a bunch of heartfellt stuff and takes a handfull of
those things that hang down and puts it on her while swirling... wow.

She actually looks like a skinny version of my mom a lot, freaky.

So there you go, my definitely best movie experience so far. Maybe I
can give you, the future reader, one one day.

Still don't know how to get to L.A. I keep myself busy a bit with
photography and I've just run out of money, but it's cool, I really
don't give a rats ass about money.

Italia Uno

Ok Italia Uno, my favorite place while I was in London. The best thing is that it was like 50 meters from where I live, I just exited the place I was staying at, took a right then was there in 30 seconds. I don't know exactly but it must've been like 95 Charlotte Street or something because I was staying at 99 Charlotte Street. I love this place because it was really authentic italian. The people working there barely spoke a lick of Enlglish, except for the owner Felice (not sure how you spell that name). Felice was so cool man, I used to go there pretty often with a script in hand thinking and memorizing stuff, it felt so calm and the right place to be when doing such stuff. 

I used to sit by the window looking at people walking by and it was twice the enjoyment when it was POURING outside and I sat there with script on my right, cup of coffee on my left and I thought "this is the way to live it"... life that is.

I kick myself for always forgetting my camera at home EVERYDAY, jesus... but the best memories are in my head anyways so.

Often I sat there and had a nice friendly chat with Felice and sometimes with the old boys sitting outside. One of them even gave me a cigar once, it was like they invited me to their family. I would love to go there again as soon as possible to have another italian sandwich and talk to Felice and have a cigar with the old fellas with a new script in my hand snapping pictures and watching football later...

...maybe one day in the future.

So, if you go to London, go to Italia Uno and say 'Hi' to Felice, he works like 6-7 days a week (closed on Sunday when there is football)