Nixon's speach that never was. + Poem Time!

Just done watching a six episode documentary about the moon landing. The documentary goes into deep detail from the moment the US is trying to get a rocket into space, getting a man into space all the way to how the shuttle program operates and it's truly fascinating. Imagine walking on the moon, or even flying in space. Now there is something I HAVE TO DO before I die, fuck bungy jumping, I want to walk in space.

Checking out digg.com I stumbled upon a little speech. A speech that we never got to hear because he was only going to read it if Niel Armstrong and the boys didn't make it to moon, if they crashed onto the surface or couldn't get out of there for some reason.

The speech writer named William Safire wrote this short but beautiful speach, I am taking the liberty of highlighting the bits that I like the most, it's my fucking blog after all.

"Fate has ordained that the men who went to the moon to explore in peace will stay on the moon to rest in peace.

These brave men, Neil Armstrong and Edwin Aldrin, know that there is no hope for their recovery. But they also know that there is hope for mankind in their sacrifice.

These two men are laying down their lives in mankind's most noble goal: the search for truth and understanding.

They will be mourned by their families and friends; they will be mourned by their nation; they will be mourned by the people of the world; they will be mourned by a Mother Earth that dared send two of her sons into the unknown.

In their exploration, they stirred the people of the world to feel as one; in their sacrifice, they bind more tightly the brotherhood of man.

In ancient days, men looked at stars and saw their heroes in the constellations. In modern times, we do much the same, but our heroes are epic men of flesh and blood.

Others will follow, and surely find their way home. Man's search will not be denied. But these men were the first, and they will remain the foremost in our hearts.

For every human being who looks up at the moon in the nights to come will know that there is some corner of another world that is forever mankind."

Simply beautiful, on another note, I think he got a little influenced by one of Rupert Brook's poems "The Soldier". It's an amazing poem, I am not a type of person who roots the country I grew up in, so I don't care too much if something would happen to Sweden, or Turkey even less. I am more of a swede then anything, but this poem almost made me well upp and felt very brittish for some reason, so enjoy bitches.

"The Solider

by Rupert Brooke

If I should die, think only this of me:
 That there's some corner of a foreign field
That is for ever England.  There shall be
In that rich earth a richer dust concealed;
A dust whom England bore, shaped, made aware,
Gave, once, her flowers to love, her ways to roam,
A body of England's, breathing English air,
Washed by the rivers, blest by suns of home.

And think, this heart, all evil shed away,
A pulse in the eternal mind, no less
  Gives somewhere back the thoughts by England given;
Her sights and sounds; dreams happy as her day;
And laughter, learnt of friends; and gentleness,
  In hearts at peace, under an English heaven."

The Wolf In The Woods

I found this gem of a little story deep inside Final Fantasy XII, it's a really nice little story, it's not too long and I really wonder exactly who wrote it... anyways, enjoy.

"A truth: Things there are in this world not meant to exist in harmony with one another, whether they be so close as to touch, or so far as to never know the other's being.
Actions were taken in defiance of this truth, and indeed, they stirred the imagination of the world, yet only served to hasten the inevitable end. Who can say this is not the preferable Outcome? - Amata, Philosopher.

Listen! A village there was between the mountains and the sea.
It was a peaceful village, yet with one abiding fear: a great wolf that had come to live in the forest nearby.
None knew when or whence this violent beast had come, yet his howls crept over cobblestone and rang in the rafters, setting the villagers trembling.
Yet the wolf howled not to threaten, but for loneliness. Indeed, he sought after friendship of the villagers, not their flesh.
A hunter from the village came, and saw the wolf, and understood its cry. So he sought to help the beast.
"Wolf, do you know why you are feared? It is because your aspect is frightful to us"
The wolf asked what he might do to amend this, upon which the hunter replied, "Wolf, I shall cast a magic upon you so that you might have the form of a human." And by the time the hunter finished speaking, the wolf had indeed transformed. The wolf thanked him, but the hunter gave him a warning, saying, "You are man only in appearance. Know this: you must never speak, for you are a wolf, and this is the way things should be"
The wolf that walked as a man left the forest and went into town. His new face glowed with joy, for now he would have friends. The people on the street viewed this stranger with suspicion at first, yet his smile won him their trust and welcome.
The wolf was moved by the smiles they returned him, for he had never seen men showing anything but fear. Yet he did not speak, for that is the way things should be.
So was this joyous time for the wolf. But sooner it grew dark.
The wolf returned to the forest, a wolf, no longer a man. That night he did not howl, but drifted off to sleep thanking the hunter who had given him such a wonderful day. And the hunter saw the wolf, and was glad

Listen! A village there was between the mountains and the sea.
A peaceful village, for fear was dead, slain by the proud hunter whose blood-song sounded over cobblestone and rang in the rafters, easing the villagers fitful sleep.
And the hunter did not doubt nor did he cease his song... until the day a great pack of wolves descended on the village.

For that was the way things should be."

This Fucking Household...

This household is the bane of my depression, I swear to god. Thankfully it's long but gone but still I feel like it's coming back every time I fucking hear that fucking woman (my moms) is fucking screaming at that little fucking devil (my lil bro) I GO INSANE IN MY BRAIN. I can't wait until they leave during the summer then I can breath out for a whole month and just relax. It's always noisy someone yelling at someone, or mom is fucking vacuuming as usual or something like that it's ALWAYS ALWAYS noisy, how the fuck is that possible? FuckMyLife.

Last summer when they left to Turkey was the best month of 2008. The second I heard my mom step into the door it was like the depression struck back instantly. If it wasn't for my angel of a dad (I love that man to death, such an inspiration, if I'll turn out to be 1/10th of that man I tell you what... amazing) I would've rather lived like an homeless and pissing and sleeping in alleys then stay in this house.

Rain Rain Go Away.

There is light at the end of the tunnel though, just got to keep on truckin'

/rant over

I am deeps

Not only am I amazingly good looking (ask anybody, I swear!) turns out I am also quite philosophical. This makes a whole lot of sense since I am planning on studying philosophy among other things when I go back to school in a few months.

I can't remember the details but I posted a comment on one digg submission a good while ago saying that humans will never invent nor learn everything there ever is to be invented or to be learned. That in itself is a bit philosophical, and by that I mean that you can argue for and against it and no one will be totally right or wrong I guess. This one fella thought I was 100% wrong so I sent in a question to one of my favorite astrologists Dr Niel deGrasse Tyson (I always pronounce his name with an Jamaican accent), hey! I couldn't think of anybody else ok? I thought of sending the same question to folks at Cambridge and Oxford etc (yes I am srs bsns) but I couldn't find any contact info on their website, on purpose perhaps? HMMM! *the plot thickens*

Keep in mind this was probably 2-3 months ago BUT DON'T FRET! I obviously sturred into quite a few peoples thought holes to get an answer back. Not from Dr Tyson himself since he obviously is a very busy man, but from one of this amigos K. E. Saavik Ford and this is what he says

"Dear Burak,

Your question to Dr. Neil deGrasse Tyson was directed to me.  He has
been impossibly busy lately and I have agreed to share the task of
answering the many questions he receives daily.

You raise an interesting philosophical speculation. There is no scientific
answer to this question, but we can speculate:

For example, there are presumably an infinite variety of mousetraps (e.g.
spring-loaded with infinite varieties of cheese ranging to the infinitely
complex & ridiculous, dropping skyscrapers of slightly different heights
on mice, etc etc). It therefore seems like that for every possible
invention (presumably infinitely many), there may be an infinity of
variants. Therefore even given an infinite amount of time, you're in the
business of comparing infinities (which you can do mathematically, but it
is difficult to know how to quantify the infinities here).

If you're asking can we know everything in our Universe, the present
answer is no. There are definite limits to our knowledge (certainly as far
as our present knowledge is concerned). For example, the rules that govern
sub-atomic
particles (quantum theory) tell us that you can *never* know both the
position & momentum of a sub-atomic particle to arbitrary precision.

Thank you for your interest,

K. E. Saavik Ford
Astrophysicist and Hayden Associate
Asst. Prof. of Astronomy
Borough of Manhattan Comm. College - CUNY"

Quite interesting huh?

For People Who Think We Are Alone

Take a good fucking look at this picture. It's a bit compressed so click on it to get a bigger view. I know some people are... well to be honest, fucking stupid, but fuck me if you think that we are alone in the universe you deserve a medal. See each dot on that huge picture? Yea that's a star, just like ours that is sitting like 8 light minutes away. Exactly the same potato, it might be bigger or smaller but it's the same deal.

What you are looking at is 150.000 stars in our own galaxy, the milky way which is a tiny fraction of milky ways BILLIONS of stars. As we know there are eight planets orbiting our sun. Just think of the fucking odds of there being NOT A SINGLE FUCKING PLANET ORBITING ANY OF THOES STARS ON THAT PICTURE. Do you know what the odds of that is? Me neither but I bet my life that it's fucking small. Considering that the picture only contains 150.000 stars and our own galaxy has billions makes my point even more valid. Is your mind boggled yet?

Now take a look at THIS picture. Every dot of light there is a galaxy, each of them containing an additional of billions and billions of stars and where there is a star there might be a planet orbiting it. Feel stupid yet?

Check THIS epic picture. What? More galaxies? What's your point I get ya already! I hear you say. What's so special about this picture that probably is one of my favorite one is that NASA pointed The Hubble telescope at an (what they thought) was a completely empty patch of the sky. They obviously already have a huge gallery of pictures of the universe so they said to themselfs "So many galaxies Robert... it seems endless" "I hear ya John, so many galaxies, billions of them and each of them containing billions of stars and shit" "But there HAS to be a place where it's just complete darkness, like my sex life" "Yeah I suppose, there can't be just endless amounts of galaxies can there?" So what did Robert and John do? They pointed Hubble telescope at what they thought was a complete empty and black patch of sky, they said "can't be anythere there can it?" 12 days of exposure later Hubble sends them this exact picture "FUCK ME EVEN MORE GALAXIES WHAT THE HELL?" they yelled in unison. Again, tons of galaxies with zillions of stars.

And people STILL think "No way man, no aliens brah". Idiots. Now I'm not saying that there are aliens in soucers flying from galaxy to galaxy, that's not what's important. I am talking about LIFE full stop. Animals eating... whatevs they eat on their planet. Fish or birds etc, must be millions of planets filled with life. Just think of the odds of there not beeing any life? It's next to impossible, as far as we know the universe is infinetily big.

Go outside for a sec and hold a pen at arms length towards the sky. The tip of that pen is probably 1mm thick. That tip is covering over 10.000 galaxies... imagine that huh.

The last picture is an epic one though. The Pale Blue Dot. What's that? Let my old friend Carl Saga tell you.

"That's here. That's home. That's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar", every "supreme leader", every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there - on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam."

Now YOU TELL ME where are the only mofos in the universe...

Over and out.

served to you by Boston Big Picture

Emtying Some Thoughts

I am making a mash up of a few different topics this time, just to lay some cards on the table. We're all friends by now right?

As far as the acting thing goes, mentally it's going great. It's all in the mind for me. "All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become. ~Buddha". I am doing great by leaps and bounds and I CAN'T WAIT to put it all into practice. The unfortunate thing is though that I've done a bit more research on my voyage to acting school (NYFA) and it seems like my high school degree is gonna take me a year and a half to get (I'm a high school drop out, i'm an artist baby what do ya want from me? more on that later, it's a story in it's own). So that's that as far as school goes, i'll most probably start school in the fall and read about Philosophy, Psychology amongs other things. I have gotten a few ideas for character's one of which I got kinda inspired by a friend of mine, how the character is going to look anyway, Kristina Holmgren and her looovely head of hair. (she's the one on the bottom left). I'm not into any sort of hair fetish but hers just strikes my so beautifully. I can't go into detail about my idea though obviously, rest assured that If i go ahead with it you will like it :)

Speaking of Philosophy, fuck me, I just saw this pretty long documentary about how fucking DEEP The Matrix really is philosophically. I'm not even gonna get into it the slightest because it was so deep I didn't understand half of it. But I'll link it HERE and be warned, if you are neither interested in philosophy nor haven't seen The Matrix Trilogies, then don't watch this documentary. But I gotto say, I fuckig loved it. The Matrix has to be one of the best films in the last decades just for this reason alone.

Oh one more thing, Blip.fm. You all must now by now that I am a huge music buff, we've done this man, we've gone through this. Music is everything so I am glad to share a bit of my second passion with you all in my new account, blip.fm/buraken. Please do get it yourself (and get twitter also) and let's share some great tunes eh? No? Fuck off then =(

I'm going to wrap up this burrito of a post with posting a video about the man, the myth, the legend, Hideo Kojima himself. The fella that create the legendary game series Metal Gear Solid. Surely one of the best games ever. Interestingly I have a little bit of Kojima in me, in the sense that (as far as I know) when Hideo Kojima was "but a lad", he actually wanted to direct films but he ended up making video games, and most of his inspiration comes from films. I might be wrong here but that's basically the gist of his story as far as I know. I am kinda like that too but in the other way. Most of MY inspirations are from video games but I AM going to make films, great innit?

Here he talks about basically from bottom to top, how he did what he did. He goes through each game and what his thought process was etc, it's super fascinating. Please enjoy.


I better wrap this long-ass boring post right HURR.